I did not want to get out of bed today. I did not want to aware today. Last week was such a heart break, I feared today. It is so very sad when you fear the new dawn instead of being able to embrace the possibilities it should bring.

Last week we found out my eldest son was sexually molested repeatedly while he was two years old by a family member. It took eight years for this to come to the light. The person who molested my son was the victim of their father who appears to have drugged and raped his children during their lives. So my son was the continuation of that nasty strain. My sister in law is also struggling as the memories come flooding back for her. My wife and I are heart broken, what little level of safety we had in our home has been stolen from us.

My twin boys were both taken to either a hospital or doctors this week with issues. Both are doing okay. Our new dog whom we had just over a week and had fallen in love with, died in terrible pain on Saturday night. It apears he (Beowolf) died from what can be assumed to be post operative complications. The vet who treated him in his last few minutes (since the other vet said no and turned us away) worked to make him comfortable, and comfort my son and I.

This morning as I try and find a ray of sunshine to start this week, I find that someone who was a good friend, someone I had lost contact with, had passed. He left behind a family of three young kids.  So John, hope your giving God one of those big hugs you are famous for, not sure if they have Hawaiian shirts in heaven, but am sure your smiling down on us now.

So this has been my week, these have been the moments which have taken my breath away.